I am the type of person that likes to have things planned out...to know what I am expecting when I am going into something. Well, with this project...I have no idea what I am going to be doing. I don't know what to expect when I walk in the doors of the gym. I have this fear...this fear that I am going to fail. It's not just with this..but with a lot of things I embark on. Sometimes I think it holds me back from pursuing some things I would have pursued had I not feared of failing at it. I don't know why I have that fear...because, I always have God to get me thru anything I set out to do. So this is a big step for me. To just push myself to do thing that I would otherwise never do because I would be to afraid to fail. One of the major things is running. I have never ran...and felt as if I couldn't, but today I was on my own for workout and I got on that treadmill and decided that today...I was going to run. Maybe not a lot but I was going to run! And run I did...I ran a total of 1 mile...not at one time...I walked in between each 1/4 but I ran! I was so proud of myself..and to my surprise..I COULD DO IT!!! I didn't feel like I was going to die and I didn't quit...I kept going..and the after that...I pushed myself some more...I got on the Eliptical (which btw...I call the evil machine...because it is not my favorite...it is definitely a workout!! :) ) for 10 minutes..when previously I had done it for 5 minutes the first time and 6 minutes the next...and then I did the Bike (which is my personal favorite machine) for 45 minutes working out for a total of 1 hour and 30 minutes! It felt great and I actually enjoyed it!! It wasn't that way everyday this week...on Tuesday I had to work out with Mrs. Lynn and then that night was the boot camp and I was just plain exhausted. I didn't really wanna go to the boot camp, but knew I needed it and that I needed to go...so I did. But it was hard. I had very little energy and just felt beat. I did the class and went home and went to bed. It was a hard day...but I made it through...and then I did the class Thursday after working out with Mrs. Lynn and enjoyed it! I had a great time at it and plan to take more classes starting next week! Well..it's getting late...and I am tired...so I am gonna get in bed! I will try not to let time go by so much next time! :)
~Dani